for what its worth...
for what its worth, im here..never a stray, come clean dont fear
for what its worth, im never far, stay put my dear its not too hard
for what its worth , the actions made, dont ever forget the bonds you've made
for what its worth, everythings in sight, never a lie but a promise to fight..
for what its worth, there are are angels that cry, not for me dear but for your life..

Well this is new for me, I've alway's wanted to keep a journal, but never made the time to do it, so now here I am 23 years oldmaking the time. Sometimes so much goes on in my life, I need to vent, but sometimes there is noone to vent to, or thing's I don't really want to run to family and friend's about, so I figure this will be a good way to relieve myself of holding it inside.
It's back to work tomorrow, which to alot would sound silly, but I'm kinda of relieved to be going back tomorrow, I've been dealing with alot latley with having migranes and blurred vision noone can explain, and going to the doctors, and having cat scans arranged and ect.. that I can honestly say, I thank God for helping to heal the migranes and bringing the vision back. Although I'm still not taking the situation lightly, Im still going to go to the eye doctor and Nurologest and have myself checked out to make sure I'm okay.
I've been in a struggle with myself latley, I've been thinking about my life, where its going, and what I really want out of it....(maybe thats why the migranes kicked in).
I'm still not sure, which is sad, I'm 23 years old, and I should have some kind of goals for myself in life, something to work towards, to better myself...and I'm still confused, I mean I've had speratic moments where I say "Oh I think I should do this" or " I want to go to college", but still I've done nothing but waste time.
I know I need to pull myself together and figure it out now....but life is complicated sometimes, and it really can be stressful, oh what I wouldn't give to be 12 again or younger, no cares in the world.
Don't get me wrong, I have a decent life, compared to some, and I am thankful, but always wishing for more or wanting more is not such a bad thing, we all have our dreams.
Well I guess this isn't to bad for a 1st time journal entry, atleast my mind has freed up a little more space. :)

Okay, did not hear from the Borgata. Need money. WishKen would call. Cool but nice outside.
Having trouble with orderding from Kohls.
Haven't heard from my mom.
Sign goes on house and it goes in MLS next week.

I am enjoying my last day off. 3rd day. I guess I'm trying to enjoy it. I've been pretty sick lately. Couldn't have worked out better though because I did have those days off. I'm getting me and my son ready to go to the grocery store to pick up ingredients for Chili. It's freezing outside, might as well enjoy a big pot of chili! Well i'm off, i'll probably get on later and type another entry.

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